My electricity is out. Luckily I found a little flashlight to light my way. Then it came back on for 15 mins then went back out. I decided to hit up starbucks cause i was craving coffee and hope that the internet works there. As i left my place i realized the majority of the street was lite by candle light. The two markets on the corner were gently illuminated by candles as their shop owners sat outside. It was actually really pretty.
Yesterday when i was walking home from work i saw that there was some sort of huge christmas decoration going up ( well winter decoration) but regardless it made me really happy.
I've been here in Istanbul for a month. 7 to go. Everyday I think that either it cant come soon enough or i want it to be further away. My mind changes about 10 times a day. Today i booked my ticket to cappadocia for christmas. I also responded about my plane ticket home. However that i got back, so I dont think it went through.
Today I did some Christmas shopping. I dragged Brandon along because I insisted he had to see other parts of the city in order to fall in love with it. I took him to the grand bazaar for some quality bargaining. We actually had lots of fun doing it. IT went a little like this
Store owner: 75
Me and brandon: 12
Store owner : Gasp.. noo 50
Me: 20
then back and forth for along time, I tried to walk away a lot then he put it in a bag and i was like. why do that? I'm not going to buy it for more than 30, "no 35" nope. ok 30. walk away.
And most of it was done in Turkish! I told them i didnt speak english, it was really fun, we left laughing and attempted to insult other owners but never got as good of a deal. Thats just one thing i love about the city. The game of buying things.
Monday, November 29, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Turkeyless in Turkey
Well Thanksgiving came and went and I barely noticed. I do enjoy spending time with family and friends for this holiday but missing the tradition of gluttany and all didnt really bother me. I tried to explain our traditions to my students and they just couldnt figure it out. I made them draw hand turkeys and write about what their Turkey does. I'm pretty sure they thought turkey's were chickens as they were all laying eggs.
I was just catching up on some US news when I came across an article about Ms. Palin. I thought it was quite comical. She was complaining about Michelle Obamas plan to get children on a better nutrition plan. How in the world could you ever disagree that this is a good idea? Its fabulous. Obviously our society has shown that we can not control our eating habits and especially the lifestyles of our children, so yes the governement should step in. We are the laughing stock of the rest of the world. People have made many many comments to me about "but christy, you are american and you arent fat." Why are all Americans fat, Christy? Congratulations, you arent like that. Seriously many people have said that to me. I get embarassed that I come from a society that so graciously accepts obesity and worse, wont help our children fight the pattern. Enough of my little rant on the US.
Since it was the holiday season, I was feeling a little bummed out. A friend of mine invited me to a cafe where he was playing balama (turkish traditional instrument) I went there after I finished work, and it was a great night. An equivalent situation would be goign to a coffee shop to hear a few acoustic guitars. This was a bit different than hearing your normal cover band in the USA. He played songs that everyone knew and the whole bar was singing at the top of their lungs. It was great! I had no idea what they were saying but the fact that everyone was singing along the whole night was pretty cool. THey even passed the microphone around and had other people sing. He asked at one point if I would come up and play the guitar but i declined, not worth it when meredith isnt there to carry me vocally and musically. Later in the night thought when everyone left i did play a song, but they were trying to sing Turkish to it,Definitly doesnt work. If you listen to traditional turkish music, you will figure out why really fast.
Aside from that. I am learning turkish traditions really fast. Apparently when someone invites you somewhere you do not pay. I paid for my beer before we left last night and i got a stict scolding from about 3 turkish guys. The owner then told them in Turkish that Its an american thing, which i asked him to explain. Then they left disappointed. Note to self.. wait to pay:)
I was just catching up on some US news when I came across an article about Ms. Palin. I thought it was quite comical. She was complaining about Michelle Obamas plan to get children on a better nutrition plan. How in the world could you ever disagree that this is a good idea? Its fabulous. Obviously our society has shown that we can not control our eating habits and especially the lifestyles of our children, so yes the governement should step in. We are the laughing stock of the rest of the world. People have made many many comments to me about "but christy, you are american and you arent fat." Why are all Americans fat, Christy? Congratulations, you arent like that. Seriously many people have said that to me. I get embarassed that I come from a society that so graciously accepts obesity and worse, wont help our children fight the pattern. Enough of my little rant on the US.
Since it was the holiday season, I was feeling a little bummed out. A friend of mine invited me to a cafe where he was playing balama (turkish traditional instrument) I went there after I finished work, and it was a great night. An equivalent situation would be goign to a coffee shop to hear a few acoustic guitars. This was a bit different than hearing your normal cover band in the USA. He played songs that everyone knew and the whole bar was singing at the top of their lungs. It was great! I had no idea what they were saying but the fact that everyone was singing along the whole night was pretty cool. THey even passed the microphone around and had other people sing. He asked at one point if I would come up and play the guitar but i declined, not worth it when meredith isnt there to carry me vocally and musically. Later in the night thought when everyone left i did play a song, but they were trying to sing Turkish to it,Definitly doesnt work. If you listen to traditional turkish music, you will figure out why really fast.
Aside from that. I am learning turkish traditions really fast. Apparently when someone invites you somewhere you do not pay. I paid for my beer before we left last night and i got a stict scolding from about 3 turkish guys. The owner then told them in Turkish that Its an american thing, which i asked him to explain. Then they left disappointed. Note to self.. wait to pay:)
Monday, November 22, 2010
traffic
I dont care how much people complain about traffic in the states, or even blowing red lights because here its about a million times worse. According to my friend who was just visiting from Saudi Arabia, turkey is nothing compared to them. There is one big intersection that i have to cross everyday, many times a day. I can either wait for the walk sign or just go and test my luck. I have found that it is actually more dangerous to go when the walk sign is on becasue the cars are tryign to make their right turns. The best luck is to just look for a period of no cars on red and make a run for it. I dong know what i would do if i was a slow walker!
I dont miss american food. I think Turkey has the best cuisine. I feel a lot healthier being here, I dont even have to worry about the organic factor, becuase that isnt an issue like it is in the states. That doesnt mean they use tons of pesticides, because I'm sure they do, but everything is very local and very fresh which is all i honestly care about. I just had my favorite turkish meal. Cucumber and tomato salad and bread. I was missing the traditional cheese aspect but it was still delicous. There is this dressing you can make for the salad which is very delicious and light. Its a mix of pomegranate sauce and olive oil. I maybe sending some to the states a tradional turkish thing :)It is funny how much bread you eat here too. Easily you can eat a loaf a day. It is very light and fresh from the bakery every day. I do miss the variety of the franklin bakery but you cant really beat fresh bread that you eat with every meal and dont feel weighed down.
Welp for the rest of my day I have a goal to attempt yoga somehow in my tiny room. I can barely lay flat in the open space. I am excited to get the big room once my roommate moves out! I am pretty sure i've lost all muscle i had. I bet i wont even be able to do a push up since the only form of exercise i've been doing is hiking up and down huge hills. I did find a good park near by so as soon as i get motivation i'm going to start running. There is even an outdoor workout gym to use. Turkey has it all:) Now for motivation.
I dont miss american food. I think Turkey has the best cuisine. I feel a lot healthier being here, I dont even have to worry about the organic factor, becuase that isnt an issue like it is in the states. That doesnt mean they use tons of pesticides, because I'm sure they do, but everything is very local and very fresh which is all i honestly care about. I just had my favorite turkish meal. Cucumber and tomato salad and bread. I was missing the traditional cheese aspect but it was still delicous. There is this dressing you can make for the salad which is very delicious and light. Its a mix of pomegranate sauce and olive oil. I maybe sending some to the states a tradional turkish thing :)It is funny how much bread you eat here too. Easily you can eat a loaf a day. It is very light and fresh from the bakery every day. I do miss the variety of the franklin bakery but you cant really beat fresh bread that you eat with every meal and dont feel weighed down.
Welp for the rest of my day I have a goal to attempt yoga somehow in my tiny room. I can barely lay flat in the open space. I am excited to get the big room once my roommate moves out! I am pretty sure i've lost all muscle i had. I bet i wont even be able to do a push up since the only form of exercise i've been doing is hiking up and down huge hills. I did find a good park near by so as soon as i get motivation i'm going to start running. There is even an outdoor workout gym to use. Turkey has it all:) Now for motivation.
Friday, November 19, 2010
too much holiday
I have the week off. In most circumstances you would think that is a good thing. However, I just started working, the first few days were great to be off, but now I am bored. I have explored, i have walked, i have done touristy things, i have also gotten a lot of other things accomplished. But there is a lack of motivation now. A lack of motivation to do anything, i dont want to spend money, I dont want to walk in places that I dont know b/c It makes me feel bad that I dnot know the language better. I'm afraid of the super touristy areas because thats where you find the annoying Turks and mostly I just dont know what to do with myself. This is no problem when I'm teachign during the week, and I know its not too much of a problem now either as I'm very relaxed. However it is times when I have nothing to do when I start to think about things back home. I start seeing things on facebook that make me think of what I would be doing there when I have tons of free time. The answer is the same. I would be sitting and reading, much like I'm doing now. I would probably go on the same walking adventures as I would go on now, but they would be more framiliar. I am lucky to have that to my advantage it just worries me about 4 months down the road what I'll be feeling. There is no doubt in my mind that I'll be happy- esp when i see the weather reports in the Midwest but right now I dont know what to do with myself. Christmas vacation will be difficult. Actually though I can still work during break. I think I'm going to take a trip for a few days then work work work. The extra income will be nice and will be able to have some more cash flow.
I'm just bored. I do have a plan for my next few days though, which is good!
I'm just bored. I do have a plan for my next few days though, which is good!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
breakthrough
This may seem very small but to me its huge. I am on holiday right now, and this morning I decided I would treat myself to Starbucks and work on my Turkish. As I left my apartment and began up the big hill to the main road, I am used to keeping my head down and just walking. Its sad b/c I am so used to keeping my eyes up and making eye contact with those around me in the USA, not the case here. You regret it if you make eye contact. Its funny becasue in the US if I was walking home late at night by myself my eyes would be up and looking around constantly. Here if i'm walking home late at night my eyes are to the ground. Anyways.... back to the story. I walked out and was passing the little market next to my house and the shop worker actually said good morning to me! (in turkish of course) but I'm starting to be recognised! I'm not just the stupid tourist any more. I know "good morning" could have just been a friendly act said to anyone. but i was definitly taken aback.
My break has been good. I have a friend visiting from Saudi Arabia. He was in my Italy class with me and now is teaching there. It has been absolutely amazing to hear his stories about teh culture there. It has also been really nice to have someone to do touristy things with. We realized that our countries probably celebrate the same holidays so we could go travel together on the breaks!
I finally posted pictures, so check them out. I'm off to get other things accomplished !
My break has been good. I have a friend visiting from Saudi Arabia. He was in my Italy class with me and now is teaching there. It has been absolutely amazing to hear his stories about teh culture there. It has also been really nice to have someone to do touristy things with. We realized that our countries probably celebrate the same holidays so we could go travel together on the breaks!
I finally posted pictures, so check them out. I'm off to get other things accomplished !
Saturday, November 13, 2010
travel
I am trying to get caught up on my US newsources and I came across an article about protesting "Full body scans" when flying. Everyone is trying to opt out of it for thanksgiving weekend. As i was reading about all the phone call complaints and emails "vowing to quit flying" I started to chuckle. Americans, quick to complain about everything. how many of these people will acutally quit flying. yeah maybe they will not take AS many trips, but when they want to see their family across the country are they really going to take the extra days travel to drive there? No, Americans are lazy and just like to complain.
Now I've done my bit of traveling and I can honestly say that I was a little surprised when I had the full body scan as I left for Italy. I had read about it and hte jokes that people play on those watching the scans so I just kind of laughed as i walked through. I was fine with that. Why be mad at these people are trying to keep our country safe. Yes traveling in the US is dreadful. I will completly agree that traveling in the US is much more of a headache than any other country/ airport I have been too. I think there are two reasons. One being americans always think they are right and love to complain. and Two. We need it. Do you hear of other countries having terrorists bringing things on planes? No. people hate us. We need the tightened security or things will get worse. People complain about hte terrorists but when we take action to stop or prevent terrorist activities all of a sudden they are burdened. Can you never be happy? (I will admit this isnt a completely true statement about only us having terrorist activites as I also just read about a suicide bomber in Iraq's airport... but still some legitimacy here)
Speaking on safety. I find it very odd that both when I lived in London and now when I'm living in Istanbul, i feel safer than when I was in the US. These two cities have millions of people, arent bigger cities suppose to be filled with danger? I am just not as scared. I know muggings and such occur, but I also know that the liklihood of me being held up at gun point on my walk home are a lot less likely than it was in the states. I wish the US could somehow mirror the safety that I feel when i'm abroad, it would make a lot more inclined to come back. I know what you are thinking right now... probably expecially my family... christy there was just a suicide bomber in the square you walk through multiple times a day, and you feel safe? Well yes I do. The 35W bridge collapsed in the city i was living in, same thing. Freak accidents of nature. You can't live your life in fear, otherwise, life would suck.
Now I've done my bit of traveling and I can honestly say that I was a little surprised when I had the full body scan as I left for Italy. I had read about it and hte jokes that people play on those watching the scans so I just kind of laughed as i walked through. I was fine with that. Why be mad at these people are trying to keep our country safe. Yes traveling in the US is dreadful. I will completly agree that traveling in the US is much more of a headache than any other country/ airport I have been too. I think there are two reasons. One being americans always think they are right and love to complain. and Two. We need it. Do you hear of other countries having terrorists bringing things on planes? No. people hate us. We need the tightened security or things will get worse. People complain about hte terrorists but when we take action to stop or prevent terrorist activities all of a sudden they are burdened. Can you never be happy? (I will admit this isnt a completely true statement about only us having terrorist activites as I also just read about a suicide bomber in Iraq's airport... but still some legitimacy here)
Speaking on safety. I find it very odd that both when I lived in London and now when I'm living in Istanbul, i feel safer than when I was in the US. These two cities have millions of people, arent bigger cities suppose to be filled with danger? I am just not as scared. I know muggings and such occur, but I also know that the liklihood of me being held up at gun point on my walk home are a lot less likely than it was in the states. I wish the US could somehow mirror the safety that I feel when i'm abroad, it would make a lot more inclined to come back. I know what you are thinking right now... probably expecially my family... christy there was just a suicide bomber in the square you walk through multiple times a day, and you feel safe? Well yes I do. The 35W bridge collapsed in the city i was living in, same thing. Freak accidents of nature. You can't live your life in fear, otherwise, life would suck.
Monday, November 8, 2010
the turkish way
One of the hardest things for me to get used to is the 'turkish way' of paying for things. I am so used to fending for myself. All my friends can attest to my massive penny pinching techniques and here, that just doesnt work. The turkish way is one person pays the bill. Whats mine is yours. share share share. I know you are thinking whats the problem? that sounds pretty good right? Well yes and no. Yes, i love the idea of community living, its fabulous and makes life great. I love that i come home and my roommates have made dinner and offer me some. They always make plenty. Whats bad is that I need to return the favor. Im never here at nights since that is when i teach. And I just dont see it panning out, Also im confused as to what food we share and what we dont share. Apparently bread is community. There are things that I dont wnt to share that ive started to just keep in my room. That would basically be my treasured peanut butter and nutella. I feel horrible that I just cant wrap my head around how everything evens out. When i go out for a drink i want to pay for my drink and not everyone elses to. I keep a close watch on my money and right now I havent been paid, so seeing 30 lira go on a round of drinks is devestating to me. HOwever it is rude if I dont take a turn. Something to get used to.. or i try to suggest cheaper things to do!
Another thing i have notices is how turkish people justleave food out. In america we are super concerned with food safety. Here not so much. People will make dinner and leave it on the stove. I believe ther is still spagetti on the stove from 2 or 3 days ago. Refridgerators arent prized possessions in turkey and microwaves are almost unheard of. Leftovers? no, you eat it now, maybe some a little later in the night but you never put it in the fridge to eat the next day. That is another penny pinching thing i cant shake, which is why most nights i just have a sandwich to eat.
Oh the things to get used to. Last night i went out with a turkish friend and his roommate for his birthday. It was actually a really fun night. all of our plans failed miserable so we sat on istiklal street (the main road in taksim) and had a beer and people watched. Some drunk old man kept talking to them in kurdish and it reminded me of all the drunk old man stories from minneapolis. It was very entertaining. Then one of the people selling roses walked by and the guy whos birthday it wasnt, stopped him bought me a rose and sat back down. Turkish people know how to flatter a women.
Oh the woman flattering note. I did decide that in all the aspects i think american men are failing me, most turkish men are over the top.. Why is there no middle ground?
Another thing i have notices is how turkish people justleave food out. In america we are super concerned with food safety. Here not so much. People will make dinner and leave it on the stove. I believe ther is still spagetti on the stove from 2 or 3 days ago. Refridgerators arent prized possessions in turkey and microwaves are almost unheard of. Leftovers? no, you eat it now, maybe some a little later in the night but you never put it in the fridge to eat the next day. That is another penny pinching thing i cant shake, which is why most nights i just have a sandwich to eat.
Oh the things to get used to. Last night i went out with a turkish friend and his roommate for his birthday. It was actually a really fun night. all of our plans failed miserable so we sat on istiklal street (the main road in taksim) and had a beer and people watched. Some drunk old man kept talking to them in kurdish and it reminded me of all the drunk old man stories from minneapolis. It was very entertaining. Then one of the people selling roses walked by and the guy whos birthday it wasnt, stopped him bought me a rose and sat back down. Turkish people know how to flatter a women.
Oh the woman flattering note. I did decide that in all the aspects i think american men are failing me, most turkish men are over the top.. Why is there no middle ground?
Sunday, November 7, 2010
american safety
I am not sure how many people are framiliar with mitch hedburg but one of his jokes is about how he finds Subway the american embassay when he would get in trouble in other countries he would get chased to the nearest Subway, go inside and say HAH you cant touch me here. Well i feel like that with starbucks here. I never wanted to admit it and i never wanted it to happen but that seems to be my refuge and my chilling space. Its not even that i need american coffee. I think its my safety knowing I wont be attacked by turkish people. I wont be asked to sign up for some charity and I wont be convinced to try some restaurant. I know what I am getting when i walk in, and have the sercurity of framiliarity.
Yesterday I finally began to realize how women are treated differently here. I know many of you are saying, geey christy we have been telling you this from day one. I had a male tell me that I was basically made to be a housewife. NOt my personalities of caring and wanting to actually be a housewife but that Hey you are female, ready to care for all the children? I have always been telling people that ultimately i want to stay home with my children, soyou are probably asking why this is a big deal. I think it was more the fact that he said Im a woman. you stay home with the children. no question whether i want to work on the side, whether maybe there is a nanny involved. it was in stone females = housewives. No questions. It was just interesting to me. I am seeing little issues like that more and more as i get to know turkish females.
I found a church that I am going to go to. Actually I have to get ready pretty soon. I inquired about some bible studies and the only ones the told me about were for married couples. I have a feeling im going to be in some very uncomfortable positions inthe near future. ONe thing i love about being away from the United states is that I no longer have the pressure of being married. Yes i really badly do want to be married some day, but not now. Its hard being in the states where the number one question is are you dating anyone. Its even harder when a lot of your friends are getting married. Here despite the fact that the second question i am asked when i meet a turk is "are you married" i dont have the same feeling of embarassment or uncomfortable feeling. I am afraid that will come back in the bible study groups.
My birthday! I realize i havent updated this in awhile. I had a fantastic birthday. I went to my refuges spot (starbucks) in the morning where i got breakfast and read my book. The sun was shining and it was maybe 60 degrees. Then i went ofr a long walk down by the water. Very peaceful and relaxing. I came back and my roommate made me dinner. I went to class, where i had told my students the previous week how important my birthday was to me and they all remembered and said happy birthday as i walked in. Then 10 mins into class I was doing a review game and the four students that were absent burst in with balloons and a cake with sparklers and candles. The whole class then started singing, and I was so happy. The difference between turkish classrooms and american classrooms is that they dont have as many rules. I was feeling very uneasy when they walked in with fire but quickly realized that its their country and would know what they can and cant do. THen they set of sparklers inside.. another shock to me! Finally one went to grab the knife to cut the cake and walks in with a huge butchers knife. Three things that are not allowed in the US. I however didnt care and was really excited. After class some students, my friend from the US, and my roommates and I all went out or a drink. It was great. Very relaxing and i love that Turkish people take birthdays seriously. Perfect place for me! My roommate got me a plant for my room which made me really excited. I think any sort of green makes it feel more like home!
Well i believe that was a monsterous post. I have to go study. I made a bet with my students that they had to learn all the food names in english and I would learn them in Turkish. Today we have a test...
Yesterday I finally began to realize how women are treated differently here. I know many of you are saying, geey christy we have been telling you this from day one. I had a male tell me that I was basically made to be a housewife. NOt my personalities of caring and wanting to actually be a housewife but that Hey you are female, ready to care for all the children? I have always been telling people that ultimately i want to stay home with my children, soyou are probably asking why this is a big deal. I think it was more the fact that he said Im a woman. you stay home with the children. no question whether i want to work on the side, whether maybe there is a nanny involved. it was in stone females = housewives. No questions. It was just interesting to me. I am seeing little issues like that more and more as i get to know turkish females.
I found a church that I am going to go to. Actually I have to get ready pretty soon. I inquired about some bible studies and the only ones the told me about were for married couples. I have a feeling im going to be in some very uncomfortable positions inthe near future. ONe thing i love about being away from the United states is that I no longer have the pressure of being married. Yes i really badly do want to be married some day, but not now. Its hard being in the states where the number one question is are you dating anyone. Its even harder when a lot of your friends are getting married. Here despite the fact that the second question i am asked when i meet a turk is "are you married" i dont have the same feeling of embarassment or uncomfortable feeling. I am afraid that will come back in the bible study groups.
My birthday! I realize i havent updated this in awhile. I had a fantastic birthday. I went to my refuges spot (starbucks) in the morning where i got breakfast and read my book. The sun was shining and it was maybe 60 degrees. Then i went ofr a long walk down by the water. Very peaceful and relaxing. I came back and my roommate made me dinner. I went to class, where i had told my students the previous week how important my birthday was to me and they all remembered and said happy birthday as i walked in. Then 10 mins into class I was doing a review game and the four students that were absent burst in with balloons and a cake with sparklers and candles. The whole class then started singing, and I was so happy. The difference between turkish classrooms and american classrooms is that they dont have as many rules. I was feeling very uneasy when they walked in with fire but quickly realized that its their country and would know what they can and cant do. THen they set of sparklers inside.. another shock to me! Finally one went to grab the knife to cut the cake and walks in with a huge butchers knife. Three things that are not allowed in the US. I however didnt care and was really excited. After class some students, my friend from the US, and my roommates and I all went out or a drink. It was great. Very relaxing and i love that Turkish people take birthdays seriously. Perfect place for me! My roommate got me a plant for my room which made me really excited. I think any sort of green makes it feel more like home!
Well i believe that was a monsterous post. I have to go study. I made a bet with my students that they had to learn all the food names in english and I would learn them in Turkish. Today we have a test...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Address
Alrıght I fınally have some addresses. Now read carefully. For cards, you can send straıght to my house whıch ıs...
Chrısty Corso
İnönü Mah.
Babıl Sokak 24/3
34000 Elmadağ/ Şişli / Istanbul
Turkey
For packages my head teacher suggested ıtcome to work otherwıse ı have to go somewhere to get ıt..
Englısh Tıme
Christy Corso
Istıklal Cd. No 151/2
Beyoğlu / Istanbul
Turkey
In other news! Lıttle bıt of a news scare. I am fıne.I spent the day wıth my frıend mıke and we went to the Asıan sıde of ıstanbul. It was rıght on the water and we sat on the rocks whıch remınded me a lot of kenosha. Yesterday I dıd some explorıng by myself, I went to the area where meredıth and I had explored, ONe thıng ı dıd notıce was that I started to feel very aware of the color of my skın. I was walkıng through an underpass where ı was flooded wıth dark haıred people allw wearıng black jackets. Here ı was lıght brown haıred caucasıan gırl walkıng through and ı suddenly felt very self concıous. I know that htere are many lıght skınned turkısh people but ı to feel very aware of my skın color for the fırst tıme ever ın my lıfe. It doesnt help that on cold days ı am askıng for attentıon when ı wear my brıght green jacket.
Ive also gotten annoyed wıth the fact that ı cant make eye contact wıth anyone. Today when ı was walkıng ı looked up for just a bıt and accıdentally made eye contact wıth someone and was constantly swarmed about helpıng some organızatıon. Sometımes ı do feel better that when ım walkıng wıth turkısh people they get harassed by restaurant and shop owners just hte same. But ıt ıs frustratıng to change that habıt of mıne. I know that wıll be a topıc that wıll surface many tımes throughout the next year, but hopefully ı wıll begın to just be ok wıth ıt. I have a lot of other thıngs to do and dont really want to be on the computer all day. So untıl later!
Chrısty Corso
İnönü Mah.
Babıl Sokak 24/3
34000 Elmadağ/ Şişli / Istanbul
Turkey
For packages my head teacher suggested ıtcome to work otherwıse ı have to go somewhere to get ıt..
Englısh Tıme
Christy Corso
Istıklal Cd. No 151/2
Beyoğlu / Istanbul
Turkey
In other news! Lıttle bıt of a news scare. I am fıne.I spent the day wıth my frıend mıke and we went to the Asıan sıde of ıstanbul. It was rıght on the water and we sat on the rocks whıch remınded me a lot of kenosha. Yesterday I dıd some explorıng by myself, I went to the area where meredıth and I had explored, ONe thıng ı dıd notıce was that I started to feel very aware of the color of my skın. I was walkıng through an underpass where ı was flooded wıth dark haıred people allw wearıng black jackets. Here ı was lıght brown haıred caucasıan gırl walkıng through and ı suddenly felt very self concıous. I know that htere are many lıght skınned turkısh people but ı to feel very aware of my skın color for the fırst tıme ever ın my lıfe. It doesnt help that on cold days ı am askıng for attentıon when ı wear my brıght green jacket.
Ive also gotten annoyed wıth the fact that ı cant make eye contact wıth anyone. Today when ı was walkıng ı looked up for just a bıt and accıdentally made eye contact wıth someone and was constantly swarmed about helpıng some organızatıon. Sometımes ı do feel better that when ım walkıng wıth turkısh people they get harassed by restaurant and shop owners just hte same. But ıt ıs frustratıng to change that habıt of mıne. I know that wıll be a topıc that wıll surface many tımes throughout the next year, but hopefully ı wıll begın to just be ok wıth ıt. I have a lot of other thıngs to do and dont really want to be on the computer all day. So untıl later!
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