4 months

Exactly 4 months from today I will be stepping onto American soil again. Is that far away or is that too soon? I have been gone for 6 months and I rarely notice it. When living in America I realized I rarely go home in intervals longer than 2 months, here it has been six. Yeah there are many days were I think, wow it would be nice to take a break and see my family, but over all it hasn’t been that bad. What will that say about my last four months? One that it will fly by and two that it just rubs in my face that I have no idea what I want to do in the future. Yesterday was the first day where I could actually imagine myself back in America, however I was just still as frustrated and confused about my future in America as I am here in Turkey. I realized I’ve learned a lot these last 6 months. But I think there is still a lot of learning to do in the next 4. I think teaching in the school I’m at has taught me a lot and gave me some very attractive qualities for future employment, if only I can relay the importance and benefits of these new characteristics.

My blog currently wont load. The message that comes up says “this site has been blocked by court order” At first I thought it was a stupid government thing like blocking you tube, but now I started to think about the unrest in Egypt when they blocked the internet. The rest of the internet works for me. I’ll keep trying, it definitely worked yesterday, maybe it’s a fluke.

So I found out that Turkey did indeed block blogger, but since this is a regular occurance with popular websites a friend showed me how to get around it. Dad since I know reading this is one of your favorite pasttimes, you can rest easy knowing that I've beat the system for now at least.

Throughout all this blogger drama I went to the market two doors down and bought veggies. I realized that all the food I bought can easily last through probably 4 meals, and I spent 5 lira. How amazing is this! I didnt even go to teh Sunday market where fruits and vegetables are even cheaper.

My private student at ING bank ended yesterday, we didnt really even talk about anything I had planned. We talked about current events, I found out that this is his favorite type of lesson, as when he brought it up to me, he said that everytime he reads about Tunisia and Egypt he thinks about our current event discussions. i think that is pretty cool. I am a little bittersweet about ending it. It was nice having an intellectual discussion once a week, but it was also annoying to have that hour long communte for an hour and a half lesson.

It has been rainy and cold here. I have another free day today, and i should really go do something,I enjoy lazy mornings though. I think by 2 i'll finally get out, I have to mail some letters and hopefully have an idea of where i want to go for the day.