old update

When I couldnt log onto my blog this is something I wrote a week ago...

My head teacher told me I was most likely going to continue teaching my weekend girls which meant I would have the perfect schedule. Today I get an email. I am not teaching them, nor do I have another weekend class. I am still down on hours. What the heck English Time. I like my job “the job” I don’t like the things surrounding it. I have been thinking if I were to come back, could I come back solely for the students? If I had a different job would I lose the amazing students I have? Yes they frustrate me sometimes but who doesn’t get frustrated with their job. Can I handle the drama of English time longer? The frustrating hours. What if I were in a different work situation, how would my life be different? I always seem to not do things a second time b/c of the fear of them not working out as good as they did the first time. Tonight at dinner Bulent was asking me what I would do back in America, I told him I didn’t know. I had absolutely no idea. He then said, well you have a good job here, why not stay. I have a good job here, but is it continuing to fulfill my goals. I have thought on many occasions that I am ready to settle, but where.

I hate the feeling of uncertainty, but this time I’m not as worked up as I normally am. I know that God is making decisions. He led me here. He has led me through all my adventures. I guess come July I’ll have a better idea of what I want.

On a completely different note, I figured out how to change my keyboard to a Turkish keyboard. I am suddenly really ambitious to continue learning Turkish. Now I can type! It is very weird, and difficult but I’m up to the challenge, that is my next goal tonight…

I’ve been denied Blogging again, I think I am doing something wrong. Today’s events: I finished my first grammar block of level 4. I have no idea how I did it, thank goodness it seemed the other teacher did a good job with them. I asked my head teacher today why I didn’t get to continue teaching my weekend class. She said the new teachers needed hours. And that I’ll start a new class next week. I said. Well … I need hours too, why are they more privileged than I am. She said they were at 16 hours, you are at 20. 4 HOURS. My Students signed a petition to have me again. She said “we tried to talk to head office, they think this is better” How is this better. Lets annoy the teachers that have been here awhile. Lets not give them what they want. Ohm lets take away their collective bargaining rights. Wait, that’s America, something that I’ve been reading about and remembering more and more why I left. Why I cant stand the attitudes of Americans. But I realized I am American I think like that, I think I am right and that is the only thing that matters.

I know that I’ll start a new class that is just as good as my old class, I know this b/c for the most part I’ve had a really good experience teaching so far. But no one ever wants to leave a good thing. I know to stay positive, that is one thing I learned here. Stay positive and life will be a lot better. Expect things to be crappy, and life will be ok. Expect the worse, because it will happen, and then its not a surprise.

Key to success at English Time: expect the unexpected and prepare for it, because its going to happen.

I prepared a worksheet for my students today because they wanted extra practice. I came in early to make sure I could get it printed for them. Oh right the printer doesn’t work. They got to hand write all my examples. Expect the unexpected, and you will be ok.