planner

I am a planner. I plan my life, granted I've had a lot of "freak out" moments. I've changed my mind on career paths a million times, but I've always ended up somewhere. Right now I have no idea where my life is going, it frustrates me, I like plans, I also like spontaneity, but generally in the right capacity. When you don't know where you are going to sleep the next night-- that bugs me.

I have no doubt that I'll find a job. I'm a solid candidate, I loved teaching, and I was good at it. Thankfully, I have that much going for me. I just dont know when or where. I wish I knew that I just had to travel for a bit and it will all work out. I've made countless pro's and con's lists this past week. They make sense for all of 3 hours, then I go back to second guessing myself.

It's been really great getting to know the people in my program. They all came here for different reasons, they have very different pasts than myself and I've heard some pretty amazing stories. I have found one similarity though. We are all on a quest to find something out about who we are. There are a lot of people who had great things back home but needed to discover something about who they are, I think I can say the same about myself. i loved being in the US, but something was missing, I didnt know what I wanted in my life, and this just seemed to be a logical fix.

I have a bunch of goals for myself for this time in my life. What makes this job search harder is knowing that before I accept anything or move anywhere I have to make sure it's a strategy to help me obtain my goals. I know it sounds selfish, but this is about me. This is my time to figure things out with out the influence of , well, i dont know what influence cause I was always surrounded by great people in the States. But maybe there is a new influence that will help me find what I'm searching for.