Fitting in

One thing I've noticed about Italians and their dress is that one, they are very skinny. Everyone is, i dont think you could actaully come here not being skinny cause its very hard to fit in doors and beds and such. I just got out of the shower where I was starring at the cubicle around me wondering what someone would do if they were a bit wider than myself. I barely had room to turn around. Two, they were loose clothing, for the most part. Its funny that they are skinny and wear loose clothing and in the US the large people try to fit into these skin tight outfits.

Okay onto some Florence specific news, I am slowly having faith in this city. I have been able to communicate a bit more with the locals as my flatmates dont speak italian so they have me translate. I still don't feel a great fit, I dont know if its the people I'm with or the people of actual Firenze.

Last night we went out for a bit, the bar we found was full of American study abroad folk. I have decided one thing, I do not want this experience to be another "study abroad" trip. My mind is just not set for the school on the backburner, go out 4 times a week, blow a lot of money on trips, be loud and obnoxious. I look at those girls and guys in the bar and was like, that does not look like fun. The girls were dancing on tables just being ridiculous, of course people have such tainted views of America, this is what we send them as our ambassadors. I want to change that, not in full, but maybe to one or two people. I want to meet a group that I get along with, laugh with and fully connect with; not that I don't connect with the people in my program, but I haven't had any stunning "ah ha" moments yet.

I know this sounds a little depressing but I do like the city. I like that I'm being pushed outside of my comfort zone, but I'm just now realizing how it might be a bit more challenging than I thought it would. Think about it, our guidance people at the school have told us to not even look at jobs until we are graduated, but where am i suppose to live next month? Should I just pick a new city and try there a bit while I get work details sorted or do I stay in Florence where I will have a bit of a safety net. I predict a lot of stress in my future.