I have the week off. In most circumstances you would think that is a good thing. However, I just started working, the first few days were great to be off, but now I am bored. I have explored, i have walked, i have done touristy things, i have also gotten a lot of other things accomplished. But there is a lack of motivation now. A lack of motivation to do anything, i dont want to spend money, I dont want to walk in places that I dont know b/c It makes me feel bad that I dnot know the language better. I'm afraid of the super touristy areas because thats where you find the annoying Turks and mostly I just dont know what to do with myself. This is no problem when I'm teachign during the week, and I know its not too much of a problem now either as I'm very relaxed. However it is times when I have nothing to do when I start to think about things back home. I start seeing things on facebook that make me think of what I would be doing there when I have tons of free time. The answer is the same. I would be sitting and reading, much like I'm doing now. I would probably go on the same walking adventures as I would go on now, but they would be more framiliar. I am lucky to have that to my advantage it just worries me about 4 months down the road what I'll be feeling. There is no doubt in my mind that I'll be happy- esp when i see the weather reports in the Midwest but right now I dont know what to do with myself. Christmas vacation will be difficult. Actually though I can still work during break. I think I'm going to take a trip for a few days then work work work. The extra income will be nice and will be able to have some more cash flow.
I'm just bored. I do have a plan for my next few days though, which is good!
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