clear headed

Ok I think I am a little more clear headed for this post. Yesterday was a very thought provoking day but when i started typing, i also started a chat with a friend I had planned to talk with so I couldnt give my thoughts their full attention.

In all reality when have you ever known me not to jump from topic to topic though. Ok first thing. Nationalities. When I was walking around yesterday I realized, that no matter what I want/ I will never be anything but American. I will never be "turkish" I dont look it, I dont act it, I cant fathom ever fitting in becuase thier first assuption of me is that I'm white, light haired, so I must be a foreigner. Sadly there are plenty of people who looke like me, so i wonder if they go through the same thing, even though they are turkish.

I wondered if that was a struggle people had in the USA. We are a very diverse country but do they sometimes feel like they don't look the American part?
I think even holding an American passport puts us aside from the rest. We have priviledge ( i know i spelled that horribly but i'm too lazy to look it up.) I forget how lucky I am to be an American. i've never had much national pride, but there are days where I am thankful. For instance, i have the passport to the world by being a native English speaker. People would kill to be that lucky. I can virtually go ANYWHERE and find work. I dont need any training. just the fact that I speak it. Crazy. Think for example if the world started speaking all Arabic. Your favorite TV shows were in Arabic, you had to watch them via subtitles. ALl the movies were produced in the middle east. All the celebrities you heard about, didnt speak your language, and though down upon you if you werent fluent in Arabic.

America does this to immigrants. They are trying to learn teh language, but you yell at them when stumble through thier sentences. Some say " go back to your home land" However, i have lived in both Italy and Turkey now, and yes i do attempt their language but they dont yell at me, or make comments about me when I screw up. they are actually impressed that I'm trying. I'm trying to fit in. Why cant we have a little more tolerance in the USA. English is NOT easy. As i sit here trying to figure out our grammar stuctures I am in awe when my students memorize things so quickly. We have hundreds of irregulars, in turkish there are 3, yet I'm still struggling with those three.

On a lighter note. I found a great Christmas radio station to stream! I'm going to try to have it on non-stop to get me in the mood. its hard to celebrate when you are sweating! My students said there is a chance of snow this weekend. I was really excited, and they were the complete opposite. I also am going to start some backing and share the christmas joy with my lovely students :)